I can sense it further in advance these days.
Small shifts in my reactions to set backs.
A sleepless night or two.
The tweaks of anxiety.
The rumbles of familiar feelings. I know what’s coming.
A misunderstanding with a friend, a child suffering at school, the reality of making myself vulnerable.
And the storm begins.
Thoughts and emotions crash and collide as I try to breathe through the anxiety and nausea.
Everything feels too loud and too bright.
I want to hide.
Withdrawing into busy-ness, I wait.
Wanting and wishing.
For the storm to pass.
Do you wait for the storm to pass, or actively chase it away?
I’ve tried both. Sometimes one works. Sometimes it’s the other. Sometimes neither. I just keep on keeping on… and hope that one way, or another, it clears and I can see again. Hope yours clears soon too. X
Yes, lovely. The storm is clearing xxx
I feel like I’m always ‘waiting for something’ at the moment. It’s not a good way to live. I need to actively chase the storm away, or it will just linger. I think…
So true K. I feel better being able to spot the signs x
Sometimes the storm has to happen so that we take care of ourselves. And that’s ok xxx
So true. I’m trying to remember that you can’t enjoy the light if there is no dark. Thanks for reading V x
I know that feeling oh-so-well, the wanting to hide. Hating the storm, but letting it claim me all at the same time. Sometimes I have no power over it… and I’m forced to wait until it passes… but mostly these days, I recognise the storm for what it is, and realise that in my own mind, I am the weatherman, and I can forecast the weather in whatever direction I fancy. I’m still learning this one…
So glad the storm is passing for you lovely xxx
So true Jane. Spotting the signs early and taking action has helped. Thanks for reading and commenting.
I’ve tried outrunning it, standing in it and waiting it out and yelling back into it.
Not sure which is best really. I guess what ever works at the time. x
I say, try anything and everything too.
I wait for it to pass, but try to coax it along. I can feel and recognise the shift and need to grab on to it, otherwise it gets away from me.
Storms respond well to cake, I find.
Like the idea of grabbing on to it (and cake). x
I batten down the hatches & put on a smile for the outside world. I force myself to keep busy & be around people. I figure if there’s enough people they won’t notice my smile doesn’t reach my eyes. Things are good now just hoping I can handle the next one as my marriage is falling apart before my eyes.
Oh Karen xx take care and thank you for reading x
I’m just holding on until the next thing. Can’t breakdown because of xyz. I’m running out of xyz and I have no idea what will happen then…
Holding on. Such a familiar feeling x Take care T. Thanks for reading x
I’ve been chasing recently and feel as though I’m coming out the other side. It’s a good feeling. Hope the sun shines soon.
It’s started
Thanks Clare x
I keep thinking about Dory. Just keep swimming.
I like this one!
I always want to hide but I know it works better if I actively chase the storm away.
I’ll try anything
So true x